I made the decision to get my tubes tied, I made that choice. I sometimes feel now that I don’t really have the right to be given another child, and that is where my fear lies now.
My fear now is that it will not work for me. I have done IVF twice before with success on the first try! Why am I afraid it won't work this time? I think maybe because I only have ONE shot at it. When I was doing this for other people, I knew we were going to try at least three cycles, so there was not a lot of worry involved.
I never felt the worry, it worked the first attempt.
I am afraid it won’t be the same for me now that I am doing this for myself.
C’s fear (when we have talked in the past) is it will produce more than one babe. That I could be some Octuplet Mom! Haha… but seriously... No, we would be transferring 2 embryos (maybe 3 depending on the quality and for a better chance of having one.)
It is now only March. The transfer would be sometime in August or September, it seems a lifetime away. I promised C that if we decide to do this we will have a summer where we can do things together and have a good time, as last summer I was pregnant with the peanut. This way if it works I will be pregnant over the winter and have the baby in the spring of 2010, which would work out nicely for all of us.
My fear now is that it will not work for me. I have done IVF twice before with success on the first try! Why am I afraid it won't work this time? I think maybe because I only have ONE shot at it. When I was doing this for other people, I knew we were going to try at least three cycles, so there was not a lot of worry involved.
I never felt the worry, it worked the first attempt.
I am afraid it won’t be the same for me now that I am doing this for myself.
C’s fear (when we have talked in the past) is it will produce more than one babe. That I could be some Octuplet Mom! Haha… but seriously... No, we would be transferring 2 embryos (maybe 3 depending on the quality and for a better chance of having one.)
It is now only March. The transfer would be sometime in August or September, it seems a lifetime away. I promised C that if we decide to do this we will have a summer where we can do things together and have a good time, as last summer I was pregnant with the peanut. This way if it works I will be pregnant over the winter and have the baby in the spring of 2010, which would work out nicely for all of us.
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